悠長假期

四月二十四日
肉身在中環。靈魂在澳洲。

四月二十五日
發燒。喉嚨發炎。放假一天。

四月二十六日
代表公司出席HR Directors' Forum。坐在Renaissance Harbour View Hotel 的Concord Room 內的我，簡直不敢相信自己就是在場西裝筆挺的中環人的一份子。聽著台上嘉賓present，感覺又好像回到了大學的ELB LT1。其中一個題目是"A Case Study of Values and Culture in MNC". 簡直是Anthoropology的題目。噢多懷念Joseph Bosco的課。
午餐時坐在一位三十多歲，在一間美國consulting firm當Managing Director的女子旁。彼此就痛苦地找話題。大家都這樣虛偽地生活著。更失望的是那份滴油的三文魚薯餅。唉。
幸好午餐後有Fitness First的aerobic+yoga+body combat表演，表演者更要台下觀眾一起舞動。我一個人，當然不怕，盡情的舞著。可憐各位高跟鞋西裙西裝中年大肚腩生銹關節，被迫不情不願的移動四肢．．．好有趣。
然後一位舞台工作者以表演藝術和集體遊戲講解溝通技巧。邊上課邊看表演邊遊戲，真好。
晚上給自己煮了薯仔雜菜湯。還偷吃了TimTam和scone。

四月二十七日
換新裝。期待明天和後天的training和五一假期。

男朋友

他真的很好。很難相信吧，跟他一起已經三年多了，感覺依然甜蜜。他很疼我，很會逗我笑。在我最困難的時候，最沮喪的時候，最彷徨的時候，我有他。我真的覺得自己好幸運，可以遇上這樣的一個好人。

（各位姊妹請勿擔心，我沒有失去理智。我愛他，也愛自己。共勉。）

Australia

14 Apr - 20 Apr

Went to Adelaide, Australia with my family. Nice trip. The sky was still blue. The grass was still green. The river was still turquoise. But things were just different to what I felt with Tong last year. Surely I was happy to see my parents having a great time anyway. I have not seen them smiling for years, not to say laughing like what they did in Adelaide.

My elder sister was having her university graduation ceremony. She's been in Australia for some 4 years. Sometimes I was sort of jealous. I have always tried my best to be a good duaghter, a good student and a good girl. But what I get was just responsibilities like housework, taking care of my rebellious younger brother and helping in my parents' boutique. I paid my school fee all by my scholarships. It's so unfair. Why spend so much money and effort on them but not me? But gradually I found that I should not be the jealous. It's my luck that I don't need my family's assistance. Anyway, I wish my brothers and sisters all the best. Sincerely.

One day in Australia, my parents talked about a story about me before I was borned. They did not want me. They wanted to have abortion. It was my grandms who asked them to keep me. This is also why my name is so different from my siblings', and that my name is not going into the family tree record. I have heard of this story for many times and it seems to explain why I am so close with my granny, and why I always have a feeling that my parents owe me. Perhaps am just think too much.

Anyway, this Aussie trip was very different from what I had expected. Yes I was happy, for at least I don't need to stay in the office.

I look forward to the next trip. With friends.

走

明天便動身往澳洲了。

很難相信上一次去已/只是差不多一年以前的事。

印象中那個美麗的藍天、草地、街道、建築等等依然熟悉。

A picture paints a thousand words:

http://community.webshots.com/user/iris_cyp1
http://community.webshots.com/user/iris_cyp2
http://community.webshots.com/user/iris_cyp3

週末

四月八日

不知為何，對著家人我總會黑面。心底裡其實我好疼他們。
小時候我是個乖乖女，基本上包辦所有家務，閒時會到父母的店子幫忙，讀書成績好，又肯照顧弟弟。該是從姊姊弟弟二人都去了澳洲開始，我的乖乖女限額便好像用完了。我知道自己脾氣好壞，對家人好冷漠......
其實我只不過不想再受傷。

下午跟小朋友玩。真好。


四月九日

很久沒有玩得這樣盡興了！
我真的覺得自己好幸運。

3/4 - 7/4

四月三日

今日是公司的傑出員工頒獎典禮。看著同事從董事手上接過獎座，對著台下的家人和同事揮揮手，笑容中那種光榮自豪，真叫人替他們高興。想起小時候很喜歡派成績表，因為打開成績表的感覺就如拆禮物一樣。在學校要得到人認同，多簡單。

我負責的corporate song終於完工，雖然放工後在巴士和有線電視聽到那隻歌會想嘔，但滿足感還是不小的。（Music video available at: www.nwsh.com.hk)

四月四日

兒童節。正式加入人事部的第一天，有點失望。
跟區小姐談到男人。想不到十八歲時還口口聲聲說「老公都唔准掂吱吱」的她，今日竟然當個可以如此瀟灑的playgirl。


四月五日

清明節。跑了步。感覺良好。


四月六日

只不過放了一天假，但覺得自己容光煥發。:)


四月七日

好想放假......